Sometimes...

Sometimes i wish that i hadn't been born, or that i should have killed myself all the times i've had a chance. it would have solved a lot of problems. such as my inablity to be treated nicely by anyone in my family, i got yelled at by my great grandmother, and i hate yelling, so much, its one of the few things i can not stand, and instead of my family being nice, as i cried they made jokes about me, pff, does anyone else have a family like that?

i think its kinda wrong that they do this, meanwhile, i'm still not allowed to use the camera to upload drawings onto deviantart and its driving me slowly nuts!!!

I'm sorta using here as a substitute, sorta, putting up some of my old ones up here too, for example this one. This was a drawing i did with a reference from a book on wolves i have :D

Wolves are the best :D

My self

This is also another drawing I have done, it is another version of my fur self, cause you know i'm secretly a werewolf in disguise, jokes.

This is my deviant art ID at the moment, love my deviantArt account, i don't think i'd survive without it. my friends introduced me to it, but i haven't been able to post artworks lately and its killing me.

This character's name is Mayiaa, she is a wolf-dog, of a special sort. she can change from human to this form at will.

Her distinctive markings are the cheetah tear drop markings on her snout as well as the white muzzle and crows feet like markings on the corners of her eyes.

http://little-deamon-child.deviantart.com/

Anyway...

Don't know what to say...

I have found that lately, for some reason or another, i don't have any idea what to say to people, or how to express my emotions, i've always had a problem with the latter but it seems to be getting worse.

I find myself more distant from my friends, and i don't want to be, i mean they're my friends, and i kinda enjoy their company, but something is making it hard for me again, i need to figure out what it is before its too late.

Also, i thought i'd add one of my drawings, this is of my pack, a weird sort of way of regarding my family. Not blood relatives, of course, not close to them. This is my friend family, just me the one with black fur and the other two. Anyway...