Have you ever felt like the whole world is against you, like your family and that no one will ever care about you or what you think or feel. I feel like this all the time, it is, upsetting, my sister has always got priority over me and it make me angry and sad all at once, the two things that keep me happy are my friends and my artwork, i love drawing, and my friends so much, when my sister insults my artworks no one has any idea how much it really hurts, but i always take it, i used to do stuff to myself to make me feel better, i haven't in six months or so, but today was the last straw and it happened again, i dont know how i can feel guilty about something that in truth i have no control over, and you know who makes me feel guilty about it, my mother, as though im doing something to her, or casey, but im not.
she gets all angry at me, telling me that i should be doing this cause of how it affects her, cause its all about her :S yeah right, of course it is, its always about her.
its not like i want to do this but this, drawing and my friends are the only things that make me happy, or feel better anymore.
the other day when i was really depressed, my mum was yelling at me for being in a bad mood, however my friends immediatly noticed that i was upset and tried to comfort me, to me there are no better people :D
they're really all ive got left, but they dont know that, they dont understand why i get so protective, no one has ever stuck with me for so long and made me feel as happy as i do when im with them.
oh well better get back :P cya !!!
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