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Ah i started the preliminary trials dis week, it has been pretty bad, you dont realise how little you know till they make you do a test on it.

it was almost hell today with the legal studies test, i didn't know how to answer the questions in one part and it was impossible to understand, its like they set them out like that one purpose :S

you cant win them all i suppose, but whether i win any will be another matter entirely :S

Randomness

Oh well, my little ripping at my arm problem is back again, my mum flipped, and so did my best friend, she hit me about five times spread over about three minutes (my friend, not my mum) she really doesn't seem to like me doing that but i cant really help it, my teacher in sport half drove me to madness, everyone was supposed to be well, doing sport and almost no one was and she singled me out of about twentyfive kids to say, get up and do sport!!

then when i am reluctant because i wanted to be by myself, she stalked over to a boy and asked if i could play on there, turns to me with a sneer and then says, see! was that so hard!! as though i didn't know that, but really, she didn't need to be so rude about it, she is always singling me out to say something nasty.

and she seems to wonder why people don't like her, she's rude and obnoxious and has no nice ness in her at all.

i don't even know why she's a teacher if she can't be civil

randomness

haha, im talking to one of my best friends, he is so weird, and he is hilarious, and he knows just what to say when your upset, most of the time

;P

he's great :D

My friend

Oh my god, you know you have the best friend ever when they cry cause of your pain. she seriously flipped when i told her. saying how sad it was that i could do that, i really appreciated it, she'll probably never know how much

The Family Wars

Well, as if to contradict me, today my sister and mum had a massive fight and i mean massive, they sreamed so loudly at each other that im surprised no one called the cops, it was over school, cassie refused to go cause she would be late and well, if she hadn't been complaining she would have got there on time, and then they had another fight when she got home from school. as much as i dislike her, i hate it when people yell, or fight, it kinda upsets me a bit, but oh well if i dont want to be targetted next i'll stay out of it, its better that way :P

my account on deviant art is awesome, anyone into art i recomend deviantart.com tis the best :D
my account is :P http://little-deamon-child.deviantart.com/ i love my art :D

Inequality 2

Have you ever felt like the whole world is against you, like your family and that no one will ever care about you or what you think or feel. I feel like this all the time, it is, upsetting, my sister has always got priority over me and it make me angry and sad all at once, the two things that keep me happy are my friends and my artwork, i love drawing, and my friends so much, when my sister insults my artworks no one has any idea how much it really hurts, but i always take it, i used to do stuff to myself to make me feel better, i haven't in six months or so, but today was the last straw and it happened again, i dont know how i can feel guilty about something that in truth i have no control over, and you know who makes me feel guilty about it, my mother, as though im doing something to her, or casey, but im not.

she gets all angry at me, telling me that i should be doing this cause of how it affects her, cause its all about her :S yeah right, of course it is, its always about her.

its not like i want to do this but this, drawing and my friends are the only things that make me happy, or feel better anymore.

the other day when i was really depressed, my mum was yelling at me for being in a bad mood, however my friends immediatly noticed that i was upset and tried to comfort me, to me there are no better people :D

they're really all ive got left, but they dont know that, they dont understand why i get so protective, no one has ever stuck with me for so long and made me feel as happy as i do when im with them.

oh well better get back :P cya !!!