Busy

has there ever been a time when you wish you had nothing to do but really you have way to much, thats whats up with me this week, and whats worse is that i have crossroads again next week which always puts everyone behind on their work and we can't affor that anymore, our teachers, aren't all that encouraging, they are telling us that we need to study even harder than we are now, but that is difficult when they don't gie you time, and there are so many people in my year (11) that half the time it seems like they are using as many excuses as they can to get rid of some of us it makes it all very tiring :P

after a while however you almost get used to it, :P well thats what people tell me anyway, i haven't, but i can dream :D

Relaxation

Well, relaxation is hard to find when you're piled up with this much work, yep, i have an english assignment due on monday on poetry (brutal) and i have a japanese writing task some time this week so i have to practice writing hirigana the changing it to romaji (i think thats how you spell it anyway) and then answer the english questions in english its quite complex to do when you really have no grasp on the subject. And i can't understand the meanings of some of them.

Oh well !!!

Australian poetry is almost as bad, i mean theres nothing wwrong with it if you like that sort of stuff but im not a big fan and it gets so boring, its not like i have a real choice though, i want to finish highschool, and to do that i have to do all my assignment and pass all my tests. but you make do :D

i woke up really late today s well, but its allowed cause its a saturday, it was bout 0330 when i did.

i tend to relax a little from the research and i just watched something from a anime called wolf's rain, it was sooo sad, i cried, one of the characters, Toboe died, gah !!!

Oh well i better get back to it :D

Sleep

why do you need sleep, well there are lots of reasons, living being one of them, but sleeping for 24 hours straight is almost certainly un natural, thats what i've just done and i have a killer headache.

Listening to kate miller heidke is kinda helping though, her music is awsome!!!
:D even if no one else thinks so cause i've always been a weird on. God i'm almost embarressed having to use fake names for me and my friends and family but they deserve moderate privacy without me putting their real names out there. oh wells, "Blaze" is being well himself, the whole silent type thing, but to my surprise he's loosening up a little. not a lot but enough that he's relaxed, he always used to be so tense with everyone, now he is relaxing so am i, i guess when someone else is tense i am, and boy am i ever wound tight, sometimes i just have to let go but sometimes when i am really tense i can jump cause someone right beside me, who i can see does something sudden!!

anyway!!!

Family inequality!!

Hi Aabysinyaa!!!

You ever notice, that, being the eldest, everyone has high expectations of you:

• good grades
• dress well
• ability to do anything
• have your mind in the area of sanity
• be on top of anything and everything
• and then be able to do anything they ask!!

Well look i don't know how it is with anyone else but thats whats happening here in my family, i'm the oldest, and well today, i really enjoy just relaxing on the computer for a while, doing some stuff reading a bit and yeah, my little sister, lets call her Casey, yeah she is a total snob, what made her that way, my mother and grandparents, she has first priority over everyone else.

Oh! Casey is failing her class and she has a assignment due, we have to help her, the adult practically do her work for her!

Oh! Casey is asleep she must be sick Aabysinyaa feed her retard (he ran headfirst into a wall when he was a kitten) cat.

Today i fell asleep waiting for casey to get off the computer and when i wake up, not only is my cat, (the normal one) still outside come six o clock almost completely dark outside but i'm apparently in a bad mood, wonder why??

then i am told to feed our one of our dogs (we practically have a zoo), and i also have to do homework finish two assignments and also figure out why the fish in the tank in my room are getting sick: total fatalities of seven; 2.

Not only that, there are all these plans going on for year twelve and we aren't even in year 12 yet!!

I'm over it!!!

Dis is me!!

Hi !!!!

For privacy's sake I'm going to call myself Aabysinyaa, though anyone who really knows me, knows that name well, and anyone who knows a lot about countries knows it is a modified version of Ethiopia's old name. or maybe just Abby! :D

I am just a girl, you know, going through the same crap as almost everyone else, if your family is like the bold and the beautiful everyday! I think this will be my life, in story form. Like any teenage girl i have a secret crush, one, funnily enough i share with my best friend, lets call her Aaliyan, and lets call our shared crush Blaze, god i need creative help, (convert the names a little of them and you get the real ones :D)

Both me and Aaliyan share our liking for Blaze with each other and often (god forbid) swoon over him together.

Blaze is the strong silent type, you know the type, seen not heard, kind of the bad boy everyone can't help but like. However he isn't that all out badboy type, he is really actually a nice guy all artsy and animal loving and stuff and yeah :D

Aaliyan is awesome, best friend i've ever had, she is just about the most caring person you'll ever meet, is willing to help anyone out and is always happy-go-lucky! she is sweet, (glad she can't really see this and if she does, doesn't know its bout her) i'm not really the loving adoring type. My childhood was a little funky so i'm not very good at the whole sociability thing. when it count though, i do know enough to stand up for my friend and what they beleive in. which i do ardently and repeatedly, though i have a slight knack for pain

not always a good thing

i really like this guy "Blaze" and though i have no idea what to do or say or be around him, yay the life of a teenager